I’m trying to make plans for my summer. Eastern Europe. Poland, Ukraine, Romania, Bulgaria, and Greece. I’ll start from the top and work my way down, flying out of either Greece or Istanbul at the end of the summer or when my money runs out, whichever comes first.
*90’s movie record scratch* But wait, back up. I already have a plan for my summer. I literally just told you it. Poland, Ukraine, Romania, Bulgaria, and Greece. Why do I act like I don’t know what I’ll be doing in 3 months time? Why do I make jokes about my money running out when, as long as I don’t go crazy, it definitely shouldn’t?
I’m scared to commit to a solid plan, because in all honesty I feel too young to be going off on my own.
This feeling is akin to impostor syndrome, feeling like I have no right to be where I am.
Which is absolutely ridiculous. I’m 21. I know PLENTY of people who have traveled on their own by my age or younger.
So why do I still feel like I’m too young to travel on my own?
It’s a confidence thing, really. I just need to do it. I need to go, to prove myself that I can do it.
It’s just scary right now. In my head I keep thinking “I should go home, get a summer job, see my younger cousins, hang out with my grandma“. All very good excuses for not travelling this summer, but that’s what they are: excuses.
I know I need to go, because if I don’t I’ll regret it. I just wish I didn’t feel so damn young.
Did you ever feel like you were “too young” for whatever you wanted to do?